Monday, January 24, 2011

23 January 2011

After breakfast, not that sleepy anymore, but I know I should going to sleep, if not I will be very tired. Then I am go inside the tent lay there and sleep during the Program Organising. Who know I only sleep for about 2hours. After wake up, prepare the food for lunch. The person in charge for food suppose is the three girls, but they are so lazy until I have to help them distribute the food. Shit them!!


During the motivation talk, it’s actually quite inspiring me. But the way he talk is not that funny make the talk a bit boring. After the talk, we start to keep all the things and prepare to go back.


Finally, our camp was ended at 6.30pm and departs back to UTM Skudai.

9.30pm arrive in M40, at first I am thinking to join Afai them for dinner, but I can’t cause we come back late. After arriving and sent every participant back, we stay at M40 to do some discussion. During the discussion, I get to know some back news. Which make me so angry, I really hate the word he say to her. Sound like I am the one who say it.

After that, I don’t know what’s wrong with her again. Keep on shout up her voice at M40. Really cannot tahan her.

11pm back to college. Finally, I can back to my room and sleep. The camp was ended, but doesn’t mean I will free also. Because I need to finish the activities report within this week and also the financial report where I don’t know how is going on at all. The only good news is a no need to go meeting anymore after our post mortem. I think it will be a good news to my dear Afai :)

Although there’s some unhappiness things happened throughout the camp but really gain a lot of experience. I learn how to corporate with others to make this camp success, it’s the first time I play treasure hunt in night day, the first time I sleep inside the tent, I learned how to built a tent and the first time I be night watcher for whole night. Good job to all everyone~~

REMEMBER THE RESULTS IS NOT IMPORTANT, THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS THE PROCESS!!

22 January 2011 (Saturday)

Today’s first activity is town trekking, after briefing and distributed breakfast, the participants depart to Malacca around 8am. After all the participants left the camp site, it’s my time to have a sleep. Sleep from 8am until 12pm. After wake up, they say want to go out and buy Macdonald as our lunch. So I also follow and eat Macdonald as my lunch.

After lunch, we start to survey the place for station games. After that, we just stay in the camp site and waiting all the participants back to camp site. Because of we required them to report themselves every one hour, and we realize that their performance is quite good and therefore we decided to buy something for tea time. Then, we go to MyDin and buy something for them.

About 5pm, all the groups were back to the camp site and reporting the fund they get it. Wow!! They collect around RM2600, really out of expectation!! Although the result is good, but there’s some different opinion on how to use the money and some of the group are very care on who are the winner. After this activity, I just realize how she is thinking. Just realize actually I am not understand her. Say one thing and do another thing. Keep on saying that the objective of this activity was not archived, but end up her group also do the same way and she is the person who care the most if her group is the winner or not.

We took our group picture at 5.50pm with our camp T-shirt. At that moment, feels so happy that we really can bring that much participants to join this camp. Congratulation to all of us.

6pm, our station was started. At first I am the only runner for station games, but in the end Ang and CK scare I can’t make it so they also be the runner. Due to we have only 4 station, so I being allocated to take care of one of the station. Oh no, it’s so boring, after two teams play at that station, I decided to walk around but have to rush back after 15minutes to remind them times up. The station game is quite good, the only weakness is the games is too easy, participants is too clever and finished the games within 20minutes.

7.30pm we end our station game and having our dinner. After dinner, is our movie session. Since we already watch the movie twice, so we all committees arrange puzzle at the other site. Movie session ends around 11pm, after sharing and it’s our jungle trekking time.

Jungle trekking?? Sound like should be very scary, but end up, it’s just bring us one round in the road at night time. Omg, this kind of activities they dare to ask RM 300 fee?? Apart from that, they are not taking care of our participant, one group was lost during the walk and luckily they met police and police bring them back. After began with the coach, in the end they agree to less 50% to us. But still it is not worth at all. And we receive many complaints from the participants.

At that night, suppose I have to be the night watcher with Yi Siang from 2am to 4am. But Shirleen and Xiao Yang din wake up to take shift. What the hell!! As a DOD and new treasurer, how come they can do like that?? Since there’s nothing to do at that night, me and Yi Siang starting to keep all the stuff and make sure everything still the same as the first day. At that moment I just realize that food department also the same. Did not done their job straight away go to sleep. In the end, I am the one who need to help them wash the entire utensil and also lap the table.

That night is really tired, I fall asleep at 6.30am but wake up again at 7am to wake facilitator and participant up.

First day of IEM Motivation Camp 2011

After about 5months preparation, finally IEM Motivation Camp 2011 was ended. Feels very tired, enjoy and also disappointed.


Start from 2pm on Friday at M40 until 11pm on Sunday at M40 also, there’s a lot of things happened. There’s happiness, enjoy-ness and also sadness.

21 January 2011

We start our registration on 2.30pm at M40. The registration process in very smooth, all the participants is very puncture, before 3pm we already done the registration. Because of only me one person during the registration time, I forget to make sure everyone bring there ic and matric card. There’s the starting of disappointed feeling. Disappointed on myself because forget to refer back the timeline, disappointed on one of the committee, because she suppose to doing registration with me, but she just sit inside and chatting.

About 3pm we starting move all the things into the bus, and finally we depart on 3.30pm. So sorry to Cyrus because we can’t wait until he finish his exam.

We arrived on camp site around 6pm which is late half an hour as we plan in our timeline. After distributing the tent to all the participants, we gather them and start our dinner. All facilitator have only half an hour to finish their dinner because they have to follow Shirleen go survey the treasure hunt places. Due to the reason Cyrus haven’t reach camp site at that moment, I became the temporary facilitator for Cyrus group.

During the way to survey, we facilitator have a lot of arguing, some of them think the place is not suitable but some of them think is have no problem, especially those who came from Malacca. They never think that for them it is very easy, she almost forget that we are just the first time came the camp site and it is during night time and there are many road, how we gonna remember all the way. In the end, arguing end without any solution, stick into the original plan. Since Cyrus already arrived in our camp site at that time, so he also come and join for the treasure hunt. Therefore, our group has two facilitators.

During the treasure hunt, as predicted the way is very hard to find, especially we as a facilitator cannot help them to go to the place. We run here run there, it’s really tired, but enjoy. In the end, because the games end, our group go to a wrong way where I also forget it’s actually no entry. After walk at that road for about 20minutes, I started to feels there’s something wrong, it supposes not that far. Therefore, i called Shirleen and ask if we get the wrong way. Haiz, we really get the wrong way and we have to turn back. The road is really dark and scary, luckily I am not the only facilitator follow this group.

Treasure hunt finished around 12.50am. After every group back to camp site, then we starting our briefing to every participants and let them go to sleep. After that we are having our post mortem and discuss on what to improve for the next day. Meeting ended around 2am and all facilitators are allow to go have a sleep. While me and Shirleen are the person who need to be night watcher at that night have to stay back. Although there’s actually 2person from food department have to be night watcher from 2am-4am, but they straight away go to sleep after post mortem. What a irresponsible person!!

End up, me Shirleen and Yi Siang are the person who din sleep for a whole night.

Friday, January 14, 2011

一切都变了吗?

自开学的第一天,
我就发觉到他对我变了。
我总是告诉自己只是我多心了,
但今天我发觉好像真的有点不对劲了。

以前他虽然不会主动抱我;
但至少他在我们走在一起的时候会主动牵起我的手;
过马路时他会主动让我走在里边。
虽然只是小动作,
但却足以让我相信他爱我。

他很少对我说“我爱你”;
他总是说这话不用天天挂在嘴边,
我接受了,
因为我相信他真的爱我。

但现在,开学已经两个星期了,
他不再想抱我;
不再每次在走在马路上的时候让我走在里边;
不再主动牵我的手;
就算是我主动牵起他的手,
他也会感到不自在而放开。
开学到今天,
我们牵手不曾超过十分钟。

今天,我不知道发生了什么事,
他连跟我讲话都懒得了,
一路上只有我一个人在说话,
如果我没开口,
气氛就变得好沉重;
信息变得好短好短,
就好象只是在回答问题。

我,
每天都在想怎样让他开心;
每天都在想该煮些什么东西好吃的东西给他;
每天都在帮他注意课业上有什么要做,哪个lab有perlab,帮他找书;
每天都在想怎样把最好的给他。

而他对我却越来越冷淡,
或许是我做了说了什么让他生气的事;
或许他不喜欢我每天开会;
或许他厌倦了现在的我;
或许他开始嫌弃脸上长满痘痘的我;
不管什么理由,
我只想知道,
他到底还爱我吗?

脑袋里充满了疑惑与害怕,
但我知道如果事实是这样的话,
我还是得接受。

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Busy Week

Normally the first week of the reopen sem is the most free time for us, but my first week for this sem is quite busy.

Sunday, Tuesday, Friday and Saturday, every night got meeting with IEM until midmight.
Monday night went to Jusco renew membership card and also buy something as my breakfast.
Thurday night, tong yuan and steamboat with 8233's gang.
Sunday, going out with my Aunty.
Wednesday night is the only night i spend my time in my room.
Omg, since when my life become so busy??

I know my dear was unhappy because of the meeting almost every night, espeacially when after 12am i still haven't back room and supper with them at N24 sumore. What should i say and do? I know there's nothing i can say and do. Sometime i finished meeting earlier, but i have to wait them because i don't have transport to back myself. I didn't call him to fetch me, because nowadays the petrol price is keep on raising, i don't wish him to waste money on just sending me back to college.
I know he don't mind to send me back, just the problem is he already needs to come fetch me at least once in a day, I know he is getting bored with the way come to find me. Again, how good if i have my own car.

Two more weeks, then my busy life will be ended. At that time, i just have to concentrate on the coming tests, quizzes and all the academic stuff. I not sure whether he will busy when the time i free, but there's no choice, because it is what we had chosen, we can just accept it.

Now, i just can try to spend more time on him, at least must let him know that i never forget him because of IEM stuff.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Encouraging from My Dear

Finished my holiday, the day I meet with him, he ask me two question.

The first question is: “Why you fat jor?”
The second question is: “Why your face got so many pimples?”

Seriously, I don’t know how to answer these two questions. I know this holiday I gain some weight, but I never know for him I gain a lot weight. Omg, I really did not realise actually I gain a lot weight this holiday, eat too much already la. It’s time to keep fit again. My target is 45kg ler.

Second question more difficult to answer compare to first one. It was more than one year time already, not only does not recover but sometime become worst. I am really sad because of the pimples.

I had tried a lot of way, but still it does not work.
Try to control not eating spicy food, but it does not work also.
Try many type of facial product, but all of them useless.
Even spend so much money on it already, but I still din see any affect, I really so disappointed with the company and also myself.
I am wonder why others can recover but I can’t?
Is it I really need to get consultation from doctor?

I cannot cheat myself. I know it’s really not that easy to recover. Even though pimples can be cure, but it will left a lot scar also.

I am really worried about my face. Everyday wake up in the early morning, the first thing I do is always standing in front of the mirror, everyday wish that the pimples can disappear, wish miracle will happen, but every day I was felt disappointed.

Sometime I feel like I should not let him wasting his time to wait me recover, wait me become thin, wait me become beautiful. In others eyes, he is a great person, everyone say I am so lucky to have him as my boyfriend, i am so clever to chose him as my boyfriend, everyone envy with me, but at the same time I feel like he is so unlucky to have me as his girl friend.

I don’t have any talent,
I am not a beautiful girlfriend,
I am not as slim as he desired,
My face got a lot pimples which cannot be recover for a long time.
Even myself also feel like I am so ugly, sometime really hate to see myself in front of mirror!!

But yesterday he encourages me again, he told me it will recover and he will bring me home once I recover. With his encouraging, I found back my confident. Really thanks him very much because 对我不离不弃. I want prove to him that his choice is not wrong!!
Please~~~~

YC- Challenge 4

20/12/2010


Finally, we reach the final destination. Seriously I wish to meet with my dear at the day I arrive in UTM because I know that time he still not yet back to hometown. But in the end we didn’t meet up because he don’t have transport to come and find me.

The fourth challenge, REBRANDING AZ.

The task for our group is interior design, where we need to rearrange the interior design for the marketing part. Don’t have any idea on what to do and how to do. First day, we stay at their office waiting the time past and go back with a design.

Night time got no activities again and feels a bit bored. At supper time, they ask me to go down taking supper and I also go down. After supper back to room and sleep. OMG, no wonder my dear say I become fatter after this holiday.


21/12/2010

Start to move their stuff after get the permission from the Director of AZ Saloon. We always syok sendiri and feels our design is actually quite good. Haha, I used less than 2 hours to

finish all arrangement then we go online in their office again.

During the night time, we da bao tang yuan from TamanU and having it together after done our presentation slide. Again, sleep after eating supper.

22/12/2010

It’s actually the last of YC. As usual, we depart to AZ Saloom at 9am. Our presentation start 12pm and finished on 3pm. I am not presenter for this presentation, I am just the person who clicking the slide.

At the night, there’s a losing ceremony held in DSI. As predicted, we don’t get any award from YC. I know 3 of us are putting some hope on Malacca stage de, but in the no, the award got by others group.


The first time, it’s the first time I am one of the lucky person during lucky draw. A set of Nano White worth more than RM100, haha, everyone said it’s worth that I join this program when I get the NanoWhite. But actually I din use it, because I don’t dare to change skin care product. So I just left it there, maybe one day I can used it when my face back to last time.

After lucky draw session, we took a lot of picture with others.

With that, the 13 days of challenge was come to the end. What I get from this program. Yeah, I gain a lot experience and also friends. I realize that sometime it’s nice to be friends with others races.
In my opinion, this program can consider success, if the main sponsor is not AZ Saloon, then I think the program will be much more successful!! Good job for all committees.
I didn’t feel regret in joining this program when it is come to ending. One more thing is, I never thought I will have a good communication with my team member. The real world tell me my worry is no need one.

YC- Challenge 3

18/12/2010 and 19/12/2010


There’s a lot of group decided to quit in the half way because of something. Some of them got program, some of them even quarrel between group members. While for those groups that stay until Malacca, some of them are bu shuang with each others, there’s a lot of problem between all those groups. But the happy thing is our group is still very good, no matters go where, 3 of us will together except sleeping time only. If this program has a best corporation award, then I am sure that our group will get this award.

In Malacca, the challenge is promote Malacca Wonderland to communities and also sell ticket. But this challenge will combine all groups into 2 big groups only. First day we promote at Malacca Sentral while second day we promote in front of the clock tower. Seriously, I can said this is the most enjoy stage between all four stage.

Because of this challenge, I realize that I really have a talent in become a business woman. At the same time, I feel like I was made a wrong decision, where I should not further my studies and stay at home to do business. I believe I will have a bright future if I stay last time. The only disadvantage is I won’t recognise all of my friends and have such experience to studies at University.
After think back, for sure there’s some advantages and also disadvantage in very decision we make. What we can do is just go ahead and don’t turn back. 正所谓“行行出状元” .

YC- Challenge 2

15/12/2010


We depart to kl at 12am midnight and reach KSJ by 6am, we are move into room once we get the key. Because of in this stage our challenge is doing a research survey, so we decided to not going out for the first day. In the whole day we just spend some time to come out with the questionnaire. Afternoon time, thinking to go Ming Restaurant for lunch, who knows it is not open. So disappointed that cannot eat uncle mee. One day ends just like do nothing, feels a bit boring.
16/12/2010

Due to the reason we still cant get any sales and there’s some time before we leave, I decided to go flat and find if can get any sales. I am so happy that got one Aunty said that she want to buy the product but she don’t have money at that moment, so she ask me come to find her on next day. I didn’t told my group member about it because at Penang also got one customer say like that to but in the end she din come, so I don’t wish them disappointed again.
After breakfast, we are going out to distribute the survey question and also promote the product. We finished distribute the questionnaire and collect it back during lunch time. But 3 of us still can’t make any sales and again I face some question as in Penang.

After that, we taking W12 back to K2 and start the analysis for the questionnaire. At the night time, at first we thought can go Sri Rampai night market, who knows the committees suddenly have ice-breaking session at 8pm, it spoil our plan.

After the ice-breaking session, we gather again and discuss on what to present on next day. And finally I accept to be one of the presenters. Although I am scare, but after think of it, this maybe a good chance to practice my presentation skills, so I accept it.
17/12/2010
As promised by the Aunty, 9am I going out to find her with the product. Yeah, finally get one sales, she din cheat me. After talk with her for almost one hour, I back to K2 and prepare for the presentation. This is the first time I present without earlier preparation and memorise.

2pm start our presentation, although I know I not done very well, but I am quite satisfy with my performance, I am not that scare at the moment. I think I have to practice more, so that I won’t feels nervous in the future presentation.
Before that we plan to go Wangsa Walk after our presentation, who knows it was raining again and therefore we back to room and sleep. At first we thought I done our presentation quite well, but in the end we being call to the board room again. 3 of us like drop from the sky. I think it’s because our sales is still the lowest.
Again, we survive in the board room, but after discussion, we feel like don’t wanna continue this challenge if it is still direct selling on AZ product for the next two stage. So, we going to tell the judge that our group want to quit, but they not allow us and tell us there’s no need to sell AZ product for Malacca stage. In the end, we continue the journey again.

YC- Challenge 1

Youth Challenge 2010 was ended almost two weeks, but now only i have the time to write down what i have gone through this program.
11/12/2010

I am going to KL meet point to gather with them since i don't know how to go USM from AT. At the moment i reached UTMKL, a lot of memories come into my mine and this make me happy. After that, i saw 6 people sitting and chatting at Dataran Ilmu there, they seem like the participants for YC but I don’t dare to approach them. In the end, one of the Malay guys asks me if I am YC participant, then he invite me join them chatting together. Therefore, I had known 6 more friends. 3 of them are Malaysian; one of them is philippines, and another 2 guys I forget from which country already. They are so friendly and we are chatting together until 4pm while waiting others participants.

We arrived USM at around 11pm, after that they are giving us a brief explanation on what we have to do for the next day. After the main sponsor brief it, one thing comes into my mine: “Selling skin care product? My face is so many pimples, how am I to convince people buy my product?” at that moment, i feels like I should quit this program. But I know, I should not give up easily, and everything will be fine tomorrow, this is what I told myself when I gonna give up.
12/12/2010

Start our first challenge in the early morning, our first destination is Komtar( the highest and oldest building in Penang) where have a lot of Malay walking around there. At the moment we arrived, all of us, including others group seems like lost, and don’t know where to go. So we are just walking around for half an hour. After half an hour, we arrived in the bus stop, there are a lot of people waiting bus and therefore we starting to approach people and make sale. Unfortunately, we failed to make sales.

After trying for many times, we still can’t get any sales and this make us so down. After lunch, we change our plan, going to Penang jetty because we know there’s will be a lot of people. But after we reach there, we din make sales also, because we din approach one person at all. What we doing there is just have a look on the ferry and also the Star Cruise that stop at the jetty. Don’t know why Tz don’t want take photo although we already ask him to do so for many times, therefore we din have any photo as memories.
I know, at the moment we arrived in jetty, both of them already give up to make sales, so we just walking around with the map in hand. With the map in hand, we by pass some historical and attractive places in Penang. After walking for almost one hour, finally we back to Komtar again. When we meet others group and we know some of them already get the sales, then we start to worry about it and therefore we start approach people again. But still we get nothing and finally we going to ear Cendol near Komtar. 7pm we going back to USM and there’s no activities at the night, so we sleep quite earlier at that night. Before I sleep, I told myself: “ it’s first day only, don’t give up, tomorrow sure will get something if we try hard.”
13/12/2010

Second day of challenge, I am thinking to achieve the target I set last night, but who knows my team member don’t have the same idea with me. They din plan to do any sales for today. 2 versus 1, finally we go out with only few products. Because of we have only one pass in our hand, so we start our journey at Penang by walking. This is the second times I walk nonstop for a long time after Malacca trip with my dear. We walk for almost one hour and it was raining, so we stop at half way and having our lunch there. After waiting there for awhile and the raining was stop, we continue our journey again.

I forgot how long we had walk, finally we arrived our destination, sleeping Buddha ( 睡佛) which is very famous in Penang. After that, we continue our journey to Taman Botanical Garden, before arrived in Taman Botanical, we reach Taman Rekreasi Penang and we have a walk inside there. Besides that, we also saw the temple which is built in the half mountain I forgot what name already.

After walk for around one hour, we arrived in Taman Botanical Garden, there’s a lot of plant at there and we have a look in those plant, some of them are really pretty and some of them not. Maybe because of I don’t know more about plant ba. Since we have no much time and the Botanical Garden is too big so we just stay there for awhile and need to depart back to jetty meet others. But it’s traffic jam and we are late, so we going to change bus from Komtar back to USM.

We sit inside the bus for almost one hour but still not arrived USM, luckily Mr.Lim’s brain is clear and he say we may miss out the bus stop that we should stop, so we go down in the half way. When we go down from bus, we really don’t know where we are. But we still can saw the USM building, so we walk by looking for the building. Again, we walk for half an hour and finally we arrived in USM at 7somthing. 3 of us look so tired because of walking for a long time, but the committee thought we are sad because din make any sales. Feel so guilty.
Because of coming back late, we miss the chance to go Pesta Penang, but talking non-sense at café we both of them until they come back from Pesta Penang.
Again, one day pass, although I am not achieving my target and walking for a long time, but still I feels enjoy because I can went somewhere that I have not been before.

14/12/2010

Last chance before the first challenge ends. 3 of us going out with a high spirit after talk with the manager. Plus most of the committees put a high expectation on us and treat us so good, we told ourselves we must make sale in the last day.

Our destination for the day is gurney plaza. At first we survey around gurney plaza and check which shop is suitable for us to approach. We choose some of the shop and go one by one. But ends up, we realize that none of the shop is suitable and gurney plaza is a high class place. Haiz, we are wasting the whole morning in gurney.

Finally, we use the first pass to go Komtar again. We doing direct selling at bus stop again, unfortunately we still can’t get any sales although I had try to approach every people around. This really make us super duper down and finally we give up after eating laska and we are planning to go Kek Lok Si with our second pass. Walking around kek lok si for half an hour, then we are going back to jetty and meet with others group. Because of din make any sales, 3 of us are preparing to go into board room for elimination session.
Only 3 group being call for elimination and 2 group had decided to quit, therefore, we can proceed to next stage easily. At this stage not only we didn’t get any sales, while I also face a lot unhappy question like “How if my face become your face if I used this product?” this really make me so sad and force me to face this truth. Although I already know will facing this problem from the first day when I know we need to do direct selling on skin care product, but when come to reality, I still will feels sad.