End second paper of final exam, still got 3 more to go. First paper quite ok, but second paper is not that good, hopefully will not kill by this paper ba.. Tomorrow he have microp exam, i am here wish him all the best, hopefully those thing he read will come out in the exam and never come out something that he never read. That's what can i do for him now, nothing more..
Starting to search for internship company, still thinking where to go for intern.
First choice: Do it at KL, got 4 company i can chose, Digistar, Texas, Siemens, IBS. But seems like he don't wish me to do at KL. Maybe he is worry something that i worry- I will ask him come to find me during weekends. Even myself also can't promise that i won't ask him come to find me or i go to find him during weekend, how come he will believe on me?
Second choice: Johor, it's seems like transport is a big problem and also accomodation. The only company near to UTM is Cytron, but i really don't wish to go.
Third choice: Penang, there have company i really wish to go, but will facing transport and accomodation problem. I really don't know where should i stay.
Fourth choice: My hometown, haven't check if there's any others company is suitable for intern or not. Seriously, i don't think there's any.
Final choice: Malacca, this is the choice if in the end i still can't get a company.
Yesterday help him sew his jeans, this is the first time i help others sew their cloth, i just sew my clothes before. The result is not as good as what i wish to see, but no choice, that is my level. I know he also not really like it, maybe not like it at all, but anyway, this is really what can i do. I will try to do it better if there's next time.
This few days always saw some leng lui, and my self-confident was become lesser and lesser. Suddenly feels that i should not disturn his life. He should have a beautiful and slim gilrfriend but not an ugly and fat girlfriend like me. I also wish to have a smooth face as others, but although i put a lot of afford and also money on this, the result still the same, i can't get back a smooth face. Feel like i am nothing in his life. Because of me, he lost a lot of things and sometime i make him stress.
Yesterday ask him to find others as his girlfriend, but then he ask me to give him my hand, i know, he LOVE me. But this make me more and more guilty, sometime will very regret that why i want to tell him the truth last year, if i never tell him, then we won't get together and maybe now he will have a beautiful girlfriend.
怎样做个美丽的女友，让他可以骄傲的把我介绍给大家认识呢？？
