What happen to me this few days? Why suddenly keep on asking him come to find me again? I already know he don’t like this question, but I also don’t know why this few days I can’t control myself. So sorry dear, I really no heart to make you unhappy.I will try to control it for the coming day. Please don’t get angry before I can control myself ya.
Sometime even myself, i also can’t find the reason why I would like him to come find me. Is it really the time for me to bring him back home? Am I prepared? Is he prepared? And sometime feel like I should not asking him follow me back home or I follow him back his home. It looks like not really good for a girl to go guy’s house although it is very common nowadays because I don’t know how his parent view. Plus his mother still doesn’t know our relationship, I think it may be not the suitable time to go his house now.
Maybe i am a bit rush, but I just scare of it. In my point of view, everything will be fine once get permission from parents no matter from his side or my side. I am kind of worrying, always worry this worry that. Last few days always quarrel in library, finally we promise to each other cannot quarrel anymore, if not then we will not study at library anymore! Because of this promise, we did not quarrel for these two days.
This semester we have only 2 same subjects, starting feel like I am not that important to him anymore. He doesn’t need my help anymore. But actually I should glad with this, that’s mean now he already no need depends on me for his study anymore, he can study in his own, this is good news! This is what I wish to see last time. I know he will not leave me although he no needs me for his study anymore because he needs me for his life. Haha, start syok sendiri again. Anyway, that’s the way I make my life happier, think positively!! Feel so happy to have him as my dear, LOVE YOU!!
