This week is a busy week, but i also don't know i busy with what. Opening booth, meeting, visit Crystal Crown, Welcoming Day and Babi-cute, then one week was past.
Opening booth, i also can't believe that i can take care the booth with her for two hours and then having lunch together sumore. I think it will be a good news for him:)
Welcoming day, seriously feel so guilty when junior say i am cheating them come to Welcoming day. Haiz, don't dare to promote the BBQ night and fac night already ah. This is the first time i wake up in the early morning because of society since i enter UTM, can say it is quite enjoy la, busy life make me no free time to think of bad thing.
In the night, after back from Welcoming Day and rest for a while then went to Balai Cerap for the Babi-cute. I should happy with this event de, but there's something in the middle make me a bit unhappy. No doubt, i am still care the touch action. Although i am trying to accept her but it does not mean i can accept her to touch him. My EQ tell me i cant angry at that moment and finally i succeed. I think i will be more and more good in controlling my feeling in front of others.
Today morning 9am got meeting with fac night committee until 12pm, then going out for lunch. Today he told me that he is not free on 29 of August. Yup, i am super duper sad because of this news, but i can do nothing. I know, i can say nothing, nothing i can say, because whatever i say he will still go for the camp. So i just can keep quiet and let him go although i am not willing to do so. It's still have one month time for me to accept the truth that he will not with me at that day. Suan le, it's not the first time, last time when we together 100days he also not with me, first Valentine's day he also not with me. T_T
Coming Thursday, Friday and Saturday, he will be busy again and i need to fulfill my time with my own activity. I don't know whether my decision to stay at IEM right or not, because of IEM sometime i will be busy when he is free and vice verse. I don't like be like that, if i am not wrong there's a case beside me, because both of them are super busy and no time together then having a lot of quarrel and finally break up, i really don't want this happen. But i know if i always stay in the room, then i will keep on thinking nonsense and make myself sad. So, i think i need to do something in order to prevent myself think too much.
That day cyrus told some of my past to someone, seriously i am super angry with it. I don't like to mention about those past tense if possible. I not understand why he always like to talk about people past. I hope no body will know it except for those from diploma. But because of Cyrus, i think may have more and more people know about it. I hate this happen!! Tell him about this, but he say nothing to console me. I will try to forget all about it...
