Friday, January 8, 2010

07/01/10

What I had done today? Nothing again. 7.30am wake up and go microp class at 8.30am and study until 12.30pm. because of the LE lecturer, I din go out lunch with fai cause she din tell us she will finished class at 12.30pm, so I ask fai no need wait for me. When the class finished, I feel like not very hungry, so I straight away going back college without having my lunch. I just ate one apple and one orange as my lunch. After that, I start reading my article again because don’t know lecturer will ask us what question at night. This time, I read it properly, word by word, sentence by sentence, finally I really understand what the article say. Although I not sure whether I can answer or not if lecturer ask me question again, but compare to Monday, I think I can do better. I just can say, Monday I really not work hard enough.

5pm got LE class again, we go class by roommate’s car. Class finished around 7pm, so I rush to ktc find fai then go taman U for dinner. I am very hungry because of not taking my lunch, so I just order fried rice which is the stall that usually I like to order food. The food come within 5mins, then I straight start eating. Around 7.45pm, everyone was finished their food, maybe some of them eat a bit fast than usual because they know I got class at 8pm, especially fai. 8pm I arrived in the class, but the lecturer haven’t come yet, so I stay outside talk with fai, because today we just meet up for one hour which is less than usual.

8.15pm I go into class and I start feel scare again. Scare the impromptu, don’t know the lecturer want to do what and suddenly I heard something that I don’t like to hear. I heard mei say she talk with fai yesterday. I know maybe it is just a normal call, I really feel unhappy, I always remind myself need to believe him, but I can’t do it, although it is already 4months. But I don’t think to ask him about the cal, because I know once I ask, and then we will quarrel again. I don’t quarrel with him just because this small thing.

Back to the college at 10pm, although I would like to message him, but I control myself not to do that and start doing emt again. around 11pm, where I plan to sleep, I give him a call, but the maxis in kdse got problem, I can’t heard anything from him and also can’t send out the message to him. Wait until 12am, I just remember that I can use digi to call him, so I change to digi and give him a call. We just talk about 15mins then I am going to sleep already. I am glad that I can control myself so that din talk about the call and we end the call with happy ending.

06/01/10

What I had done today? Today I woke up in the early morning,7am. Because my class at 8am, after preparing, 7.40am I went to wait bus with hru and I reached P07 at 8am. After 5mins, our lecturer come, but not giving lecture, she just came in and tells us today class canceled. Sigh!!Inform us last minutes. Never mind, actually I already plans to go psz with fai after class. So I just message him and told him my class was cancelled, he just woke up when I message him. So I taking my breakfast first while waiting him come to fke.

Around 9am, we finished our breakfast and walk to psz. Our purpose going to psz are study emt, the most difficult subject in this semester and also maybe among every subject we need to take! Alright, start doing first question at 9.30am, but I can’t get the solution although there is answer scheme, I still not understand what they are doing. But, I am not going to give, and finally after 3 and a half hour I get the solution! Oh my god! How come I used 3 and a half hour to solve a question? If this problem still continuous how can I sit for the exam?? Luckily, I start understand the theory after trying several examples. Now, I think at least I can solve the problem for line charge. Surface and volume charge, wait ya, I am going to understand you soon.

Tomorrow is Thursday, got English class again. Don’t know why our lecturer so weird, want us impromptu every class. I know it is good for us, but I really scare, till now I still can speak in proper English until that day lecturer thought I did not read the articles. Actually I cannot mad on anyone, I thought I had done a lot thing to improve my English, but now only I realize I done nothing. i think to speak English with someone, but I just maintain for a while, maybe one or two hours, after that I will speak in Chinese again. I think to write an essay every day, but I never start an essay. I think to read some novel, but I never start to borrow a novel! What I had done? Nothing!!! Done nothing but hope to improve English, how come? There is no Reap without sowing in this world. Work hard is most important thing.

“Please stop think about face, if now you still always think about face and don’t want start anything, at the end, yourself will regret!!Go ahead!”