Today's mood changed many times.
Wake up in the morning, think of the dream, i wonder why i will dream of such thing, i am scare and wish it's only a dream. In the dream, she beg me to let him go. She love him so much and i am the person who grab him from her. I'm think of this problem again for a day and i get an answer. No, i am not!!
Today when i wake up, i feel like my face was became more serious, i feel myself is very very ugly today!! I am angry, feel like being cheated by the facial shop, they also promise me will recover, but it is already more than 2months, it's seems like nothing different with last time, maybe worst than last time. Again, i am sad.
Afternoon, waiting bus to go out, i don't know why today i will refuse to sit their car. I can't find a reason, i hate myself, why i suddenly don't like to talk with her. I always thought she is my best friend in Uni life, but i realize it's not a truth.
After lunch, not feeling well, sleep for 2hours. I hope sleeping will make myself stop thinking. Yes, it is effective, but only for 2 hours. After wake up think again.
Dinner time, although i know there's bus to go FAB, but finally i choose to walk there, because i wish to release my stress. But i don't know i make a wrong decision or not, some people saw me walking, maybe they will blame my boyfriend, maybe they will think my boyfriend is not good, why let me walk but don't want come fetch me. Just want to say, not he don't want come fetch me, but sometime i like the feeling to wait bus and walk. Waiting bus not pity at all, walking not pity as well!! Please don't say i am pity again..
After walk for half an hour, it is better already, no more moody.. Back to good mood, study again...
