Encouraging from My Dear

Finished my holiday, the day I meet with him, he ask me two question.

The first question is: “Why you fat jor?”
The second question is: “Why your face got so many pimples?”

Seriously, I don’t know how to answer these two questions. I know this holiday I gain some weight, but I never know for him I gain a lot weight. Omg, I really did not realise actually I gain a lot weight this holiday, eat too much already la. It’s time to keep fit again. My target is 45kg ler.

Second question more difficult to answer compare to first one. It was more than one year time already, not only does not recover but sometime become worst. I am really sad because of the pimples.

I had tried a lot of way, but still it does not work.
Try to control not eating spicy food, but it does not work also.
Try many type of facial product, but all of them useless.
Even spend so much money on it already, but I still din see any affect, I really so disappointed with the company and also myself.
I am wonder why others can recover but I can’t?
Is it I really need to get consultation from doctor?

I cannot cheat myself. I know it’s really not that easy to recover. Even though pimples can be cure, but it will left a lot scar also.

I am really worried about my face. Everyday wake up in the early morning, the first thing I do is always standing in front of the mirror, everyday wish that the pimples can disappear, wish miracle will happen, but every day I was felt disappointed.

Sometime I feel like I should not let him wasting his time to wait me recover, wait me become thin, wait me become beautiful. In others eyes, he is a great person, everyone say I am so lucky to have him as my boyfriend, i am so clever to chose him as my boyfriend, everyone envy with me, but at the same time I feel like he is so unlucky to have me as his girl friend.

I don’t have any talent,
I am not a beautiful girlfriend,
I am not as slim as he desired,
My face got a lot pimples which cannot be recover for a long time.
Even myself also feel like I am so ugly, sometime really hate to see myself in front of mirror!!

But yesterday he encourages me again, he told me it will recover and he will bring me home once I recover. With his encouraging, I found back my confident. Really thanks him very much because 对我不离不弃. I want prove to him that his choice is not wrong!!
Please~~~~