~Second day~

Second day of holiday, i also don't know what i had done in this two day. Go jogging for two days already, long time din go for jogging, 1st day jogging make my whole body very pain, but because of him, i will continue to do so. I want become slimmer as he request, but is it jogging will make me become slim?? I think not enough, i should control my meal, maybe learn from hru, become vegetarian is a good choice.

Don't know why my heart starts pain again, but not very serious, so i didn't plan to tell him this, because I don't want he worry about me. Although every time he also didn’t say he is worry me, but i know actually he did worry of me. Just let him enjoy his holiday at his home.

That’s another reason I decided to not sms him during this holiday, don’t want disturb his life during this holiday. Even though sometime I will take my phone and type a message when I miss him, but in the end I will delete it. I don’t know whether this decision correct or not, but I did tell him before, if he miss me or want to chat with me, of course I am willing to chat with him, so what I do is just waiting for his massage.

So sorry to him, because last few days I keep on saying want go his home again. Last time promise him won’t mention about this topic anymore, but I failed to keep my promise, so sorry. I am trying to control myself already. But because of everyone asking me to go their house when I say I am not going back home during this holiday, then I think of it again:( I don’t know what’s the reason he not allow me to go, maybe because of his mother not allow him to pak tuo during study time, maybe because it is not a suitable time, maybe because I am not a good girlfriend so he don’t dare to bring me back, or maybe because i am not beautiful enough, he scare his mother wont accept me. No matter what is the reason, as long as this is what he want then I will just follow, i know he have his own reason to do so, I don’t want make him trouble. Haiz, try to control yourself ah!!

This time is 2 weeks holiday, I believe that time will pass very fast, last time 3 months holiday also no problem, this time should not be a problem ba. Jia You!!