Good day

Today is a good day, wake up in 9.30am, although headache but I am happy. Because yesterday we sms until I sleep, long time no like that liao. Finally I failed to control myself from sms him. But don’t know why today he is so good, sms with me from 1pm until 9pm non-stop. Last time at most he will accompany me until 5pm then he will tell me he want go to take a nap, but today he didn’t take a nap because accompany me? So touch ah:)

Seriously I like the feeling, but last time he did mention that he don’t like to sms all the time, so tomorrow I think I should control myself already. Sometime I will think that last time before we together I can sms him all the time and he also will reply me all the time but why after we together I can’t do that anymore? After think twice then I know why, because I want be a considerable’s girl friend. Last time we are just friend, maybe he don’t dare to reject me or tell me the truth, but now I am his girl friend so he telling me the truth, I should glad that he will tell me the truth. Since he is telling me the truth then I will try my best to not doing that anymore lor. This is same as when he wants me to keep fit, then I will try my best to achieved it although sometime it is quite difficult. Like today, I feel tired when I wanna go for jogging, but I insist to go just because I had promise him to do so.

Today heart become more pain after come back from jogging, more serious than last few days, I also don’t know why. Suddenly think of last time during my diploma life, got one night also like that, can’t breathe during midnight, it is really scare me ah. I wish this won’t come to me again ah. Don’t dare to tell him about it, I think if he knows about it then he maybe will not allow me to go jogging anymore. Like that my become slimmer dream will never come true already lar.

Feel weird why our floor always got guys, i am actually scared, so don’t dare to go out of my room if not necessary. Hope everything will go smooth during this holiday ah.

Yesterday someone asking me a question, did you go to ah fai’s house? I answer no, the next question, did he come to your house? I answer no. Then today another people ask me, why don’t want got to your boy friend house during this holiday? Haiz, these two persons make me think of the question again. I already promise to myself don’t want think of this problem anymore ler, why you all want to make me think of it again oh? So sad:(

Yesterday suddenly something appears in my mind. Which is asking him to go genting next week. But it’s just a dream lar, go to check genting website see if got hotel or not but cant load that page and I also don’t dare to asking him. I know he want stay at home for his holiday. So just continue dreaming ba. As long as sometime he sms with me jiu enough already lor..

He say he will jealous if I going out lunch with other guys, so I think I should not going out them during this holiday except got girls lar. At the same time, he told me that he will follow me and do the same thing as well, is it he also wants go out with girls? Seriously I don’t care if he going out with other girls, but I will very care if he go out with HER. Ya, until today I still care of this, I still can’t pass myself. He didn’t reply my message after I tell him that he cannot go out with someone, is it he angry already? I know I should believe on him, but in this case I don’t believe her. So sorry to say that, but it is a truth. I hope he will understand my feeling.