女人是种疑心重的动物

Today is his 'ex' admirer birthday, I'm sure that he did not forget it, cause he got set reminder although I din saw he posting on her facebook.

Maybe he is not posting and wish her through sms because scare I will angry if I see it on facebook. If this is a truth, I prefer he post on facebook rather than sms, at least I can see what he write on facebook and what her reply but sms I cant do that.

I know, he wont stop contact with her just because of me;
I know, he wont delete all the messages that they sent last time just because of me.
That's why until today I still keep convince myself they are nothing anymore and wont telling my unhappiness to him anymore. Because they are ex-coursemate and a close friend.

What he had done is not comment on her facebook status that frequent
and avoid mentioned her in front of me.


Suddenly I think back to diploma life and my tear keep dropping.
When I think back how sweet on the way they calling each other,
When I think back how sweet on the way he wake her up in the morning,
When I think back how sweet when he create a flash movie just for her,
When I think back how sweet when they sms almost all the time in everyday until midnight,
When I think back everything happened between both of them,
I feels like they more looks like couple although they are not together compare to me and him.

I know I shouldn't think all of this, but it keeps refreshing on my mind for don't know what reason,
I know I shouldn't cry, but my tear keep dropping for don't know what reason until I cant control it.
I know I am just a bad girlfriend for this part.

I just can said:
女人是种疑心重的动物~~