这一切都因为你

看着桌面上那RM500块的产品，我真的不知该怎么选择。

今天，还没出门前，我找回了去年做疗程的收据，点了点，算了算，大概花了RM2000。

出门的时候还一直提醒自己不准花钱，所以都没带钱出门。

结果，五个小时后，我还是花了RM500来买了这个配套。

那个美女说：RM1520有五次疗程+一套产品+ 永久会员价值RM500。

如果你不要疗程，那就给RM500= 一套产品+会员。如果到时还要回来做疗程的话只需补上RM1020 就行了。

不知道怎么的，我竟然对她说：“好吧。”

然后就掏出钱包的ATM卡，给她一刷，我的五百块就消失了:(

然后我就带着一套产品回家了。

一路上，我一直在问自己，

为什么要买产品？

为什么要做疗程？

最后我得到的答案是：“我想漂漂亮亮的跟他回家。”

后来，回到房间，

回想起那美女的话：

Minimum 十次detox 疗程来阻止继续长痘痘 。

Minimum十次repair疗程来修复我的脸细胞。

最后才对痘疤和凹凸洞进行修复。

前面那两个疗程一次要RM350， 也就是说我需要花RM7000在那里了。

过后的疗程我没问价钱，应该也不便宜吧。

我到底该不该继续踩下去呢？

RM10000，是我以后要去Paris度蜜月的钱，

如果不花这笔钱，

我就不能变漂亮，

不能变漂亮就不能跟他回家，

不能跟他回家就不能和他结婚，

不能跟他结婚就不能和他度蜜月，

不能和他度蜜月就不能幸福，

不能幸福，那我存那笔钱来干嘛？ 

花了这笔钱，我就可能变漂亮，

能变漂亮就能跟他回家，

能跟他回家就能和他结婚，

能跟他结婚就能和他度蜜月，

能和他度蜜月就能幸福，

能幸福，就什么都值得了。

可是结果真的会如我所愿吗？

女人是种疑心重的动物

Today is his 'ex' admirer birthday, I'm sure that he did not forget it, cause he got set reminder although I din saw he posting on her facebook.

Maybe he is not posting and wish her through sms because scare I will angry if I see it on facebook. If this is a truth, I prefer he post on facebook rather than sms, at least I can see what he write on facebook and what her reply but sms I cant do that.

I know, he wont stop contact with her just because of me;
I know, he wont delete all the messages that they sent last time just because of me.
That's why until today I still keep convince myself they are nothing anymore and wont telling my unhappiness to him anymore. Because they are ex-coursemate and a close friend.

What he had done is not comment on her facebook status that frequent
and avoid mentioned her in front of me.


Suddenly I think back to diploma life and my tear keep dropping.
When I think back how sweet on the way they calling each other,
When I think back how sweet on the way he wake her up in the morning,
When I think back how sweet when he create a flash movie just for her,
When I think back how sweet when they sms almost all the time in everyday until midnight,
When I think back everything happened between both of them,
I feels like they more looks like couple although they are not together compare to me and him.

I know I shouldn't think all of this, but it keeps refreshing on my mind for don't know what reason,
I know I shouldn't cry, but my tear keep dropping for don't know what reason until I cant control it.
I know I am just a bad girlfriend for this part.

I just can said:
女人是种疑心重的动物~~

Happy Go Lucky~~

Seems like 'tok' the angry person really works. We stay in peace for a long time already. Really hope that we will be like this forever. No quarrel, even got quarrel will not angry after few minutes. That is a good sign, I like it:)

It is starting of mid sem break, this time he is not going home due to short period of holiday. At first plan to go Kuantan for a trip, but after think of it we need to spend some money again. And he wanted to buy the camera, so I feels like wanna give it up. I know this is last chance for us to go for a trip within this year, since there is no holiday already. But never mind la, don't know where to go, stay at hostel better, save money save time:)

Although I wish he could back home with me for my sister wedding's dinner( just a open house buffet celebrating her engagement.) But he already rejected few time, I think he really don't want to go back ba. Suan la, since he got class on next week, it will be a bit rush and he might be angry if I keep asking him back together. But now the problem is should I going back? Feels like lazy to take bus alone...

Depends on how's things go ba:)