Critical Time

Finally finished the first program that i join-IEM BBQ NIGHT. But actually this program does not archived our purpose although there are more than hundred participants joined this program. Because of this program, everyday i sleep at 2am and wake up early. I'm really tired but happy because time pass every fast until i have no time to do revision and think something nonsense. I think this is what i want when the time i decided to stay at IEM, make myself busy.

One thing that i worried is starting, he start to be unhappy when i tell him that i have meeting or not free. I know the feeling, because last time when he told me that he is not free i will unhappy also, that's the reason i join IEM to make my life busy. But things usually come imperfect, i thought it will be good if i make my life busy, but now it become we both busy for the whole week. Monday and Wednesday night he got class, Thursday we usually have a quiz, Saturday he have meeting and Sunday i have meeting. The only time that both of us free is Friday, but sometime got activity held on Friday, so the whole week will be busy.

At the first time when he told me that he is not happy i be so busy, i really decided to quit IEM, but when i told him, he keep on asking me to stay. Actually BBQ NIGHT is the only program in external affair for this semester so i should not be so busy for the coming days. Just sometime need to do something for NTU-NUS program and motivation camp.

But now the robot project had been approved, and i interested to contribute in doing robot, so i will busy again at least until 1 of October. So sorry with it, something that i can say is even i am so busy, but i never forget about him. I am trying my best to do something for him. Wake up in the early morning although i am still sleepy just wanna doing notes for Electronic System and Statistic so that i can teach him once both of us have free time. Wake up in the early morning just wanna joining their activity so that we can have more time together although i am tired. And he will never know about this..

Recently there's a lot of quarrel between us, i am so sad and sometime crying alone in the room. Sometime i also don't know what's the reason we quarrel. Sometime i will blame myself, if i not joining IEM then this all will not happen. But what can i do now?? How good if one day got 24 hours? So that i can use the extra 24hours to do something for him. I wishes i can maintain this relationship by control my temper in front of him. Wish me luck!!