Why things become like that?? Tomorrow will be the day I waiting for a long time, but why we quarrel today just because a small thing? What should I do now? I even don’t dare to message him or call him. Is my fault again? I really don’t know. Maybe tomorrow will just be a normal day bah. I know miracle won’t happen on tomorrow. Like what he say to me, I am a 梦婆,always like to dreaming and the dream will never comes true.
But I hope at least tomorrow both of us will be happy, don’t quarrel already ok ma? Should I give him a message or a call? I miss him so much…
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Just a Wish
should i be happy or what??
Waiting for a long time,
the day is coming,
i am sad last few week ago,
because he is away on 27-29 August,
but suddenly his camp was postponed,
that's means he is free on Sunday- our 1st year anniversary.
But why i feel scare??
I scare the day to come,
because i don't have any idea for that day,
at first i thought he will go to the camp and when he come back also late already, we can only having dinner together, so i didn't think anything. Now is so sudden his camp was postponed, but i still got test on Saturday, suddenly feel so sad why i have test on Saturday, why i should take Calculus this semester?? If not maybe we can go somewhere else on Friday or what.. But now, we can't:(
Because of no idea, i scare maybe we will quarrel because of it again... He don't know where to go, i don't know where to go, finally will ends up with: not going anywhere and quarrel in that day. I don't want this to happen ah, i hope our 1st anniversary will be a unforgotable day. How to make it?? I have no idea ah.. Anyone will help me??
Suddenly become a bit greedy, wish that he will plan everything and give me small surprise this weekend. Possible or not?? Miracle will happened or not? Should i believe? Last time i also never think that his camp will be postponed, but now miracle was occurs, so is that another miracle will occurs also? Hmmm, wake up from dreaming :P
Just a wish, he won't know what i think in my brain, and he need to prepared for his micropi quiz and power test as well, i also don't wish he spend his time on me. I will never request from him, because i know this from the beginning... I don't want to burden him.. I know it's a difficult job for him to think of activity or any idea.. Anyway it's just a wish in my mind.. Wish coming day will be happy day, at least don't quarrel during this period:) I will control my temper as well la...
Waiting for a long time,
the day is coming,
i am sad last few week ago,
because he is away on 27-29 August,
but suddenly his camp was postponed,
that's means he is free on Sunday- our 1st year anniversary.
But why i feel scare??
I scare the day to come,
because i don't have any idea for that day,
at first i thought he will go to the camp and when he come back also late already, we can only having dinner together, so i didn't think anything. Now is so sudden his camp was postponed, but i still got test on Saturday, suddenly feel so sad why i have test on Saturday, why i should take Calculus this semester?? If not maybe we can go somewhere else on Friday or what.. But now, we can't:(
Because of no idea, i scare maybe we will quarrel because of it again... He don't know where to go, i don't know where to go, finally will ends up with: not going anywhere and quarrel in that day. I don't want this to happen ah, i hope our 1st anniversary will be a unforgotable day. How to make it?? I have no idea ah.. Anyone will help me??
Suddenly become a bit greedy, wish that he will plan everything and give me small surprise this weekend. Possible or not?? Miracle will happened or not? Should i believe? Last time i also never think that his camp will be postponed, but now miracle was occurs, so is that another miracle will occurs also? Hmmm, wake up from dreaming :P
Just a wish, he won't know what i think in my brain, and he need to prepared for his micropi quiz and power test as well, i also don't wish he spend his time on me. I will never request from him, because i know this from the beginning... I don't want to burden him.. I know it's a difficult job for him to think of activity or any idea.. Anyway it's just a wish in my mind.. Wish coming day will be happy day, at least don't quarrel during this period:) I will control my temper as well la...
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Critical Time
Finally finished the first program that i join-IEM BBQ NIGHT. But actually this program does not archived our purpose although there are more than hundred participants joined this program. Because of this program, everyday i sleep at 2am and wake up early. I'm really tired but happy because time pass every fast until i have no time to do revision and think something nonsense. I think this is what i want when the time i decided to stay at IEM, make myself busy.
One thing that i worried is starting, he start to be unhappy when i tell him that i have meeting or not free. I know the feeling, because last time when he told me that he is not free i will unhappy also, that's the reason i join IEM to make my life busy. But things usually come imperfect, i thought it will be good if i make my life busy, but now it become we both busy for the whole week. Monday and Wednesday night he got class, Thursday we usually have a quiz, Saturday he have meeting and Sunday i have meeting. The only time that both of us free is Friday, but sometime got activity held on Friday, so the whole week will be busy.
At the first time when he told me that he is not happy i be so busy, i really decided to quit IEM, but when i told him, he keep on asking me to stay. Actually BBQ NIGHT is the only program in external affair for this semester so i should not be so busy for the coming days. Just sometime need to do something for NTU-NUS program and motivation camp.
But now the robot project had been approved, and i interested to contribute in doing robot, so i will busy again at least until 1 of October. So sorry with it, something that i can say is even i am so busy, but i never forget about him. I am trying my best to do something for him. Wake up in the early morning although i am still sleepy just wanna doing notes for Electronic System and Statistic so that i can teach him once both of us have free time. Wake up in the early morning just wanna joining their activity so that we can have more time together although i am tired. And he will never know about this..
Recently there's a lot of quarrel between us, i am so sad and sometime crying alone in the room. Sometime i also don't know what's the reason we quarrel. Sometime i will blame myself, if i not joining IEM then this all will not happen. But what can i do now?? How good if one day got 24 hours? So that i can use the extra 24hours to do something for him. I wishes i can maintain this relationship by control my temper in front of him. Wish me luck!!
One thing that i worried is starting, he start to be unhappy when i tell him that i have meeting or not free. I know the feeling, because last time when he told me that he is not free i will unhappy also, that's the reason i join IEM to make my life busy. But things usually come imperfect, i thought it will be good if i make my life busy, but now it become we both busy for the whole week. Monday and Wednesday night he got class, Thursday we usually have a quiz, Saturday he have meeting and Sunday i have meeting. The only time that both of us free is Friday, but sometime got activity held on Friday, so the whole week will be busy.
At the first time when he told me that he is not happy i be so busy, i really decided to quit IEM, but when i told him, he keep on asking me to stay. Actually BBQ NIGHT is the only program in external affair for this semester so i should not be so busy for the coming days. Just sometime need to do something for NTU-NUS program and motivation camp.
But now the robot project had been approved, and i interested to contribute in doing robot, so i will busy again at least until 1 of October. So sorry with it, something that i can say is even i am so busy, but i never forget about him. I am trying my best to do something for him. Wake up in the early morning although i am still sleepy just wanna doing notes for Electronic System and Statistic so that i can teach him once both of us have free time. Wake up in the early morning just wanna joining their activity so that we can have more time together although i am tired. And he will never know about this..
Recently there's a lot of quarrel between us, i am so sad and sometime crying alone in the room. Sometime i also don't know what's the reason we quarrel. Sometime i will blame myself, if i not joining IEM then this all will not happen. But what can i do now?? How good if one day got 24 hours? So that i can use the extra 24hours to do something for him. I wishes i can maintain this relationship by control my temper in front of him. Wish me luck!!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
He is tired
Today saw something in his facebook, i think this time he is really very tired already...Last time no matter how tired he is, he also won't post it in facebook. Maybe because last Sunday he forget to do his prelab, and someone keep on asking him to go a meeting which is not related to him and finally he do the prelab until 3am, I am so sorry that i remind him on Sunday, if i can remind him early, then he no need do until so late. Think a lot after saw his post, now only i realize that actually he is complaining to me recently. He is not the first time telling me that he don't want go for the meeting, i thought he is just joking, now only i know he is not kidding but he is really tired already.
He keep on asking me go for a movie, i also hope we can go, but we have no time to go. Monday and Wed he have night class, Tues i have IEM meeting, Thursday i have test. The only free time is Friday but he not sure he will have meeting or not. What i want to say is can i help him take a leave?? i really hope he can has a good rest, i am very sad see him like that. Hope he will enjoy in this Thursday, i really don't mind he didn't bring me go as long as he is happy and i also know that the most happier time is when he is together with 8233's gang..
At first, i thought he will be busy for this sem and i don't want be alone, so i stay in IEM, but now because of i also have meeting, we have no time to go out, starting confuse whether my decision correct or not. But now is too late, i won't quit at least for this semester.
What i want to say is, no matter what, no matter how, i will always beside you and support you. Jia you ya.. You canhave a good rest after one month, let's us countdown!!
He keep on asking me go for a movie, i also hope we can go, but we have no time to go. Monday and Wed he have night class, Tues i have IEM meeting, Thursday i have test. The only free time is Friday but he not sure he will have meeting or not. What i want to say is can i help him take a leave?? i really hope he can has a good rest, i am very sad see him like that. Hope he will enjoy in this Thursday, i really don't mind he didn't bring me go as long as he is happy and i also know that the most happier time is when he is together with 8233's gang..
At first, i thought he will be busy for this sem and i don't want be alone, so i stay in IEM, but now because of i also have meeting, we have no time to go out, starting confuse whether my decision correct or not. But now is too late, i won't quit at least for this semester.
What i want to say is, no matter what, no matter how, i will always beside you and support you. Jia you ya.. You canhave a good rest after one month, let's us countdown!!
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Busy weekend
This week is a busy week, but i also don't know i busy with what. Opening booth, meeting, visit Crystal Crown, Welcoming Day and Babi-cute, then one week was past.
Opening booth, i also can't believe that i can take care the booth with her for two hours and then having lunch together sumore. I think it will be a good news for him:)
Welcoming day, seriously feel so guilty when junior say i am cheating them come to Welcoming day. Haiz, don't dare to promote the BBQ night and fac night already ah. This is the first time i wake up in the early morning because of society since i enter UTM, can say it is quite enjoy la, busy life make me no free time to think of bad thing.
In the night, after back from Welcoming Day and rest for a while then went to Balai Cerap for the Babi-cute. I should happy with this event de, but there's something in the middle make me a bit unhappy. No doubt, i am still care the touch action. Although i am trying to accept her but it does not mean i can accept her to touch him. My EQ tell me i cant angry at that moment and finally i succeed. I think i will be more and more good in controlling my feeling in front of others.
Today morning 9am got meeting with fac night committee until 12pm, then going out for lunch. Today he told me that he is not free on 29 of August. Yup, i am super duper sad because of this news, but i can do nothing. I know, i can say nothing, nothing i can say, because whatever i say he will still go for the camp. So i just can keep quiet and let him go although i am not willing to do so. It's still have one month time for me to accept the truth that he will not with me at that day. Suan le, it's not the first time, last time when we together 100days he also not with me, first Valentine's day he also not with me. T_T
Coming Thursday, Friday and Saturday, he will be busy again and i need to fulfill my time with my own activity. I don't know whether my decision to stay at IEM right or not, because of IEM sometime i will be busy when he is free and vice verse. I don't like be like that, if i am not wrong there's a case beside me, because both of them are super busy and no time together then having a lot of quarrel and finally break up, i really don't want this happen. But i know if i always stay in the room, then i will keep on thinking nonsense and make myself sad. So, i think i need to do something in order to prevent myself think too much.
That day cyrus told some of my past to someone, seriously i am super angry with it. I don't like to mention about those past tense if possible. I not understand why he always like to talk about people past. I hope no body will know it except for those from diploma. But because of Cyrus, i think may have more and more people know about it. I hate this happen!! Tell him about this, but he say nothing to console me. I will try to forget all about it...
Opening booth, i also can't believe that i can take care the booth with her for two hours and then having lunch together sumore. I think it will be a good news for him:)
Welcoming day, seriously feel so guilty when junior say i am cheating them come to Welcoming day. Haiz, don't dare to promote the BBQ night and fac night already ah. This is the first time i wake up in the early morning because of society since i enter UTM, can say it is quite enjoy la, busy life make me no free time to think of bad thing.
In the night, after back from Welcoming Day and rest for a while then went to Balai Cerap for the Babi-cute. I should happy with this event de, but there's something in the middle make me a bit unhappy. No doubt, i am still care the touch action. Although i am trying to accept her but it does not mean i can accept her to touch him. My EQ tell me i cant angry at that moment and finally i succeed. I think i will be more and more good in controlling my feeling in front of others.
Today morning 9am got meeting with fac night committee until 12pm, then going out for lunch. Today he told me that he is not free on 29 of August. Yup, i am super duper sad because of this news, but i can do nothing. I know, i can say nothing, nothing i can say, because whatever i say he will still go for the camp. So i just can keep quiet and let him go although i am not willing to do so. It's still have one month time for me to accept the truth that he will not with me at that day. Suan le, it's not the first time, last time when we together 100days he also not with me, first Valentine's day he also not with me. T_T
Coming Thursday, Friday and Saturday, he will be busy again and i need to fulfill my time with my own activity. I don't know whether my decision to stay at IEM right or not, because of IEM sometime i will be busy when he is free and vice verse. I don't like be like that, if i am not wrong there's a case beside me, because both of them are super busy and no time together then having a lot of quarrel and finally break up, i really don't want this happen. But i know if i always stay in the room, then i will keep on thinking nonsense and make myself sad. So, i think i need to do something in order to prevent myself think too much.
That day cyrus told some of my past to someone, seriously i am super angry with it. I don't like to mention about those past tense if possible. I not understand why he always like to talk about people past. I hope no body will know it except for those from diploma. But because of Cyrus, i think may have more and more people know about it. I hate this happen!! Tell him about this, but he say nothing to console me. I will try to forget all about it...
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