情侣间的不信任，
对一段感情来说是很严重的一件事。
我不希望我们的爱情存在任何怀疑，
但这次，
我选择相信，
所以希望你不要让我失望。
其实心里是多么的想去找他，
多么的希望他能来找我，
就算只是吃个晚餐。
就像今天，
6.30pm在LDP上，
犹豫着要不要直走去找他，
结果我还是没鼓起勇气。
无可否认，
每天五点到六点是痛苦的时候，
因为，
我的期待总是给我带来失望。
不希望给他带来任何困扰，
所以不勉强他。
有时候，
我多么希望你能给我多一点的信心，
多一点的关怀，
见我多一点，
减少对你的思念，
不要让我有任何精神上出轨的机会。
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Monday, August 20, 2012
这不是一个玩笑
对他来说这是个笑话吗？
还是在暗示我？
无论是什么，
但对我来说很讽刺，
我不想做个尖酸刻薄的女友；
我不想做个逼走自己男友的女友。
或许，
离开是最好的解决方案。
至少，
我绝对不会成为千古罪人。
Monday, August 13, 2012
8月13日
还记得，他当初说过一句话：“ 不牵手，就分手。”
虽然这话是他说出口的，
但却是我表达出来的。
而这次，
难道要说：“不公开，就分手。” 吗？
还想说，
这是最好的办法来避开那些蜜蜂，
但是他却不以为然。
一开始以为他可能没看到吧。
但是两天了，都没回复。
然后突然看到Ng Shean Huei and LsMei are now friends.
证明了，他肯定看到了，只是他并不想accept。
所以我removed 了那个request。
看到这个，
心里还是很不爽，
原来一直以来我都没放下过。
不知道谁unfriend了谁，
然后又谁request 谁as friend。
但是这证明了，
其中一个人有在看对方的profile。
是的，
心里很不爽很不爽，
因为表面上没联络，
私底下却在关注着。
是他？ 还是她？
当然我希望是她，
这样至少他对我的承诺没变->就算她主动找他，他也不会理会她。
这是你当年许下的诺言，还兑现吗？
虽然这样很牵强，
因为人们都说：“你们的爱情是坚固的话，是不可能让第三者介入的。”
但我相信每个人都有失控的时候，
所以预防胜过医治。
有时在想，
就算有一天她成功把他抢走，
别人也不会为我伤心，
因为她们总说我才是他们的第三者。
我不知道自己到底是不是，
但我知道，
这条路，
虽然走了三年，
可还是很难走。
自己坚强生活吧~~
虽然这话是他说出口的，
但却是我表达出来的。
而这次，
难道要说：“不公开，就分手。” 吗？
还想说，
这是最好的办法来避开那些蜜蜂，
但是他却不以为然。
一开始以为他可能没看到吧。
但是两天了，都没回复。
然后突然看到Ng Shean Huei and LsMei are now friends.
证明了，他肯定看到了，只是他并不想accept。
所以我removed 了那个request。
看到这个，
心里还是很不爽，
原来一直以来我都没放下过。
不知道谁unfriend了谁，
然后又谁request 谁as friend。
但是这证明了，
其中一个人有在看对方的profile。
是的，
心里很不爽很不爽，
因为表面上没联络，
私底下却在关注着。
是他？ 还是她？
当然我希望是她，
这样至少他对我的承诺没变->就算她主动找他，他也不会理会她。
这是你当年许下的诺言，还兑现吗？
虽然这样很牵强，
因为人们都说：“你们的爱情是坚固的话，是不可能让第三者介入的。”
但我相信每个人都有失控的时候，
所以预防胜过医治。
有时在想，
就算有一天她成功把他抢走，
别人也不会为我伤心，
因为她们总说我才是他们的第三者。
我不知道自己到底是不是，
但我知道，
这条路，
虽然走了三年，
可还是很难走。
自己坚强生活吧~~
Saturday, August 11, 2012
想念
阔别两个星期，我们又见面了。
只是在一起的时间实在是太短了。
没有千言万语，
只有闲聊几句。
就这样，
结束了难得的一天。
虽然这跟我想象的有点差别，
但至少我们可以见面=）
今天才知道原来那天他已在我公司楼下，
等了我一个小时。
而我却没发现他的信息。
好内疚，也好感动。
因为这证明了-》他是想我的=）
虽然我俩都在KL,
但下一次的见面，
却不知道是什么时候，
只是在一起的时间实在是太短了。
没有千言万语，
只有闲聊几句。
就这样，
结束了难得的一天。
虽然这跟我想象的有点差别，
但至少我们可以见面=）
今天才知道原来那天他已在我公司楼下，
等了我一个小时。
而我却没发现他的信息。
好内疚，也好感动。
因为这证明了-》他是想我的=）
虽然我俩都在KL,
但下一次的见面，
却不知道是什么时候，
Stage 3 in My Life
1/8/2012
Another stage of my life was started-> become a Software Engineer!
No doubt, I have been waiting the day for a long time. As I'm just fresh grad, for sure still very excited with working life.
When I first enter the office, I feels so worm with the people here, because everyone in the office will great or at least smile with you when they saw you. Not like Intel, passthrough also like you are invisible. This is what I choose to stay in a small company instead of a big company. Of course, there is still other reasons for me to choose this company.
At this company, I'm no longer as free as when I just enter Intel as a trainee. I lunch with all these new friends and manager; I start to do project at the first day. First day of working, feels GREAT!
After few days together with them, I only realize that all of them dono Mandarin one, no wonder they always speak English in the office. With this reason, of course, there is some gap between me with them. Sometime I even dono how to response on their topic. This make me feels so sad and feel like don't want join them for lunch in the next day=(
However, in the next day, when they ask me for lunch, I cant find a reason to reject them because they are just too 热情 and always make my life become not that bored with their joke=) I told myself, This is a great opportunity to improve my English, I should be more talkative, don't always look down yourself!!
Just two days I enter the company, I have been given a nickname with 'Diode'. Argh, how much give me this name and even ask me what kind of diode I want to be, Zener Diode or what. Haha, the story behind is just too long for me to write it down. Luckily, after few days, they stop with this already.
My relationship status in the company still a secret, not many people know that I am in a relationship especially all those guys. Everyone always asking to choose one guy from company said can consider. Haha.. dono how to tell them I am actually in a relationship.
Until now, what I have done?
1. A mantis project, I do until have way only as I have to move on to another project, so this project not done.
2. Now, I am in another team which I think that project is the most important project for our company. What I had done for this project? I produced two Relay and Control Pilot circuit that will be used later in that project. I learn how the program our Mid Range Board. And now, I am on the way producing Autorec circuit and learn KiCAD.
My manager said that I am a fast learner and I am talented in hardware=) He plan to give me assignment on firmware instead of software. I remember last time during our PCB lab, I do nothing with the firmware lab=_='' I am wondering if I can handle this. Someone said I sure no problem one, and I believe him and myself.
I know, none of my family members agree with me when I decided to accept this job. But still, I hope I can stay longer in this company.
Another stage of my life was started-> become a Software Engineer!
No doubt, I have been waiting the day for a long time. As I'm just fresh grad, for sure still very excited with working life.
When I first enter the office, I feels so worm with the people here, because everyone in the office will great or at least smile with you when they saw you. Not like Intel, passthrough also like you are invisible. This is what I choose to stay in a small company instead of a big company. Of course, there is still other reasons for me to choose this company.
At this company, I'm no longer as free as when I just enter Intel as a trainee. I lunch with all these new friends and manager; I start to do project at the first day. First day of working, feels GREAT!
After few days together with them, I only realize that all of them dono Mandarin one, no wonder they always speak English in the office. With this reason, of course, there is some gap between me with them. Sometime I even dono how to response on their topic. This make me feels so sad and feel like don't want join them for lunch in the next day=(
However, in the next day, when they ask me for lunch, I cant find a reason to reject them because they are just too 热情 and always make my life become not that bored with their joke=) I told myself, This is a great opportunity to improve my English, I should be more talkative, don't always look down yourself!!
Just two days I enter the company, I have been given a nickname with 'Diode'. Argh, how much give me this name and even ask me what kind of diode I want to be, Zener Diode or what. Haha, the story behind is just too long for me to write it down. Luckily, after few days, they stop with this already.
My relationship status in the company still a secret, not many people know that I am in a relationship especially all those guys. Everyone always asking to choose one guy from company said can consider. Haha.. dono how to tell them I am actually in a relationship.
Until now, what I have done?
1. A mantis project, I do until have way only as I have to move on to another project, so this project not done.
2. Now, I am in another team which I think that project is the most important project for our company. What I had done for this project? I produced two Relay and Control Pilot circuit that will be used later in that project. I learn how the program our Mid Range Board. And now, I am on the way producing Autorec circuit and learn KiCAD.
My manager said that I am a fast learner and I am talented in hardware=) He plan to give me assignment on firmware instead of software. I remember last time during our PCB lab, I do nothing with the firmware lab=_='' I am wondering if I can handle this. Someone said I sure no problem one, and I believe him and myself.
I know, none of my family members agree with me when I decided to accept this job. But still, I hope I can stay longer in this company.
Sunday, August 5, 2012
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