Feels so disappointed with those people around me.
I am not happy because I feels like they only find me when they need me.
I am not happy because I only got a lot of friends during exam period.
I am not happy because the topic they can discuss with me is only about academic.
I am not happy because everyone around me is a good actor.
I wonder if they really treat me as a friend?
I wonder what is the meaning of a friend for them?
I wonder is it friendship is something that 互相利用?
I wonder it is that's no true friend in this world?
I wonder is it I should learn from them?
Now I understand a fact:
"The more you experience the more you feels disappointed with this life."
Really can't understand why people can be like this?? Why? Why? Why?
Thousand of question in my mind, but I know I will never get the exact answer.
What I can do is only accept the truth.
I needs a good time for me to accept all of this.
I am SAD.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentine's Day
Today is the second Valentine’s Day for us, but as usual, we do not going out for celebration. As I told him, no matter yesterday, today or tomorrow, everyday is Valentine’s Day ( If we not quarrel). Actually I did wish to celebrate it, but as I say, it will be crowded everywhere and I think he is busy for his stuff also so better don't go anywhere. Maybe celebrate after we are free. But I am wonder if he will say something sweet to me during this special day??
Feels so good that we these few weeks we are good in communication, no more quarrel between us. I think it is because that I totally quit IEM already ba. Never know that IEM have that much power to influence our relationship. I think that’s why I don’t dare to be the facilitator for race for charity. Anyway, everything was ended. I am a free person from now on. :)
But when I think back, actually I am not that free also. Assignment’s due date is coming, tests are coming, and these two things already can make me no time to rest. Luckily everything in IEM was ended. I can concentrate on my studies and to be a good girlfriend.
Happy Valentine’s Day My Dear~~
Feels so good that we these few weeks we are good in communication, no more quarrel between us. I think it is because that I totally quit IEM already ba. Never know that IEM have that much power to influence our relationship. I think that’s why I don’t dare to be the facilitator for race for charity. Anyway, everything was ended. I am a free person from now on. :)
But when I think back, actually I am not that free also. Assignment’s due date is coming, tests are coming, and these two things already can make me no time to rest. Luckily everything in IEM was ended. I can concentrate on my studies and to be a good girlfriend.
Happy Valentine’s Day My Dear~~
Thursday, February 10, 2011
接受不了。。
一个星期了，我还是没办法给自己找到一个答案。不明白为什么老天要这么残忍，既然创造了人们又为什么要带走他呢？ 以前总是以平常心看待生离死别，但这一次却一直都想不开想不开。一天之内要接受身边的两个人离开的事实，我做不到。更何况他们一个只有十岁，一个只有一个月。
离开上一次的生离死别是在婆婆的葬礼上，已经十多年了，再一次面对身边的人离开，那感觉无法形容，只知道那感觉不对。我很遗憾没能看到他最后一眼。
总是叫阿姨坦然的面对，事实上自己却无法接受这样的事实。我哭了，因为我突然很害怕，真的很害怕，老天爷，求求你千万不要再对我那么残忍可以吗？
离开上一次的生离死别是在婆婆的葬礼上，已经十多年了，再一次面对身边的人离开，那感觉无法形容，只知道那感觉不对。我很遗憾没能看到他最后一眼。
总是叫阿姨坦然的面对，事实上自己却无法接受这样的事实。我哭了，因为我突然很害怕，真的很害怕，老天爷，求求你千万不要再对我那么残忍可以吗？
Monday, February 7, 2011
我们的爱情
昨天在巴士上闲着没事做就翻翻了以前的信息来看看。回顾了去年他去中国时期的信息，好怀念那时候的我们。虽然那个时候我们不能见面，不能通电话，几天才聊那一两封的信息，但我想，那个时候的我们最像一对热恋的情侣。因为他给我的每一封信息都很甜，很有意思，我很喜欢。因为他总是告诉我他想念我，爱我~~
不知道什么时候开始，我们变得好像已经拍拖很久似的，没有聊电话，没有甜言蜜语，没有信息，没有寒虚问暖，每天都只是定时一起吃饭，定时在睡前给对方一封信息。而实际上我们拍拖却只有那短短的一年又五个月而已，说真的，我并不希望我们那么快变老夫老妻。
新年九天的假期，我都没有信息他，一来是因为我店里很忙，二来是因为我想给他一个宁静的假期。我也不知道他是怎样想的，我总会觉得自己好像忽略了他，但他总是说这样他活得更自在。同时他也说他觉得每晚睡前的信息是多余的。这些都是真的吗？还是他不想我内疚，左右为难呢？
该做些什么让我们的爱情上温呢？再这样下去的话，我怕我们的爱情将会很快的就变成冷冰冰的爱情呢~~
不知道什么时候开始，我们变得好像已经拍拖很久似的，没有聊电话，没有甜言蜜语，没有信息，没有寒虚问暖，每天都只是定时一起吃饭，定时在睡前给对方一封信息。而实际上我们拍拖却只有那短短的一年又五个月而已，说真的，我并不希望我们那么快变老夫老妻。
新年九天的假期，我都没有信息他，一来是因为我店里很忙，二来是因为我想给他一个宁静的假期。我也不知道他是怎样想的，我总会觉得自己好像忽略了他，但他总是说这样他活得更自在。同时他也说他觉得每晚睡前的信息是多余的。这些都是真的吗？还是他不想我内疚，左右为难呢？
该做些什么让我们的爱情上温呢？再这样下去的话，我怕我们的爱情将会很快的就变成冷冰冰的爱情呢~~
Thursday, February 3, 2011
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